Friday, December 8, 2017
Taking the leap
Today is my last day on the bench. After 32.5 years I will officially be retiring on Feb 15, 2018, but today is my last physical day on the bench. And I will be doing this quietly. This has not been easy. Well meaning friends wanted lots of hoopla. I declined. I have chosen to tiptoe away into the next season of my life. I have said my goodbyes to close colleagues and staff and I am so grateful to have been able to serve these many years for the amazing people of San Diego County. I have taken this downsizing into my personal life too. My footprint (my stuff) has been downsized. To the point that I can see what I really need. So lots of quiet sighs as I head into 2018. For now I have no plans other than decompressing. And learning the art of Being Still. I am off of Facebook...I will only be posting here. If you are reading this I welcome you into my journey.
Tuesday, October 24, 2017
Tiptoeing into retirement
SOUL MENDING
Okay no more apologies...yes its been awhile...which is why I am taking inventory...no more excuses. (I wonder how many times one says that before the work begins). I realized in reading my old posts I have been well aware of the need to downgrade my life's distractions. And in the ensuing years I have discovered that a minimalist approach is not only necessary but freeing. A blogger named Joshua Becker with a God centered approach got me started and...Lisa Avellan of No Side Bar (somewhat appropriate considering my career) really brought the message home. I am calling this my soul mending. I retire in 31 days so there is no time like the present..in recapping Lisa A. in her take on What to do when you don't fee like yourself anymore..to reclaim the "girl" inside me I am finding areas in my life to simplify...first eliminating clutter (and not replacing it), real life budgeting of my time, lifestyle choices, relationships and $$, recognizing in truth that always being busy is really an excuse to avoid self examination and positive change...busy results in anxious. Eliminating the physical and mind barriers will lead to time for a quiet introspection on what is in my heart ..time to slow down and see what passions, what joy making has been buried for far too long. What were my dreams before I got bogged down by self doubt, the sad in life, and nay sayers. Once I begin to see the possibilities I know I will begin to take baby steps to again find who I am now in this season of life. This will take time...that's okay...no more rushing..deep breaths, now exhale.
Okay no more apologies...yes its been awhile...which is why I am taking inventory...no more excuses. (I wonder how many times one says that before the work begins). I realized in reading my old posts I have been well aware of the need to downgrade my life's distractions. And in the ensuing years I have discovered that a minimalist approach is not only necessary but freeing. A blogger named Joshua Becker with a God centered approach got me started and...Lisa Avellan of No Side Bar (somewhat appropriate considering my career) really brought the message home. I am calling this my soul mending. I retire in 31 days so there is no time like the present..in recapping Lisa A. in her take on What to do when you don't fee like yourself anymore..to reclaim the "girl" inside me I am finding areas in my life to simplify...first eliminating clutter (and not replacing it), real life budgeting of my time, lifestyle choices, relationships and $$, recognizing in truth that always being busy is really an excuse to avoid self examination and positive change...busy results in anxious. Eliminating the physical and mind barriers will lead to time for a quiet introspection on what is in my heart ..time to slow down and see what passions, what joy making has been buried for far too long. What were my dreams before I got bogged down by self doubt, the sad in life, and nay sayers. Once I begin to see the possibilities I know I will begin to take baby steps to again find who I am now in this season of life. This will take time...that's okay...no more rushing..deep breaths, now exhale.
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